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My heart started racing as I peeked into the backseat of the car.
I could see the side of my three-year-old’s head as he stared out the window.
He turned to me and started talking with a quiver in his voice.
I knew he was nervous as he gave me a slight smile.
I held his hand as we walked into the building.
He looked up at me with his bright blue eyes and I said, “You are going to have so much fun today.”
I started getting anxiety as I knew in the next few seconds everything could change.
As we got closer, we heard screaming and crying.
“Great,” I thought. This was going to make it even worse.
We walked into the classroom, removed my son’s book bag from his tiny little back and hung it up in his new cubbie.
I bent down on one knee and looked him in the eyes, “You are such a big boy. You are going to have so much fun playing with your new friends.”
He wrapped his little arms around my neck and whispered, “I love you mommy.”
I grabbed his hand and walked him into the play area.
We looked over to see two little girls crying hysterically as their parents left.
I saw his face fall and how scared he looked. I kept reassuring him how much fun he was going to have and that he would be ok.
One of his teachers ran over all bubbly and welcomed him with a open arms.
I knew I had to be quick before the tears started flowing. I leaned down and gave him a big kiss, “I’ll be back soon to pick you up.”
His face looked pale but he gave me a smile as I walked out.
Later that day, I showed up about ten minutes early to pick him up.
He was outside playing with the other kids and I watched as he was giggling and running all around.
I could feel the emotion roll right through my body and it left tears in my eyes.
My baby boy was playing….without his big brother by his side or without me holding his hand.
Our eyes connected and he darted straight for me with a happy smile on his face, “Today was so much fun! When do I go back?”
At that moment, I felt like a ton of bricks was lifted from my chest.
I have never been more proud of him than I was at that very moment.
Sometimes we can learn a lot from our kids. My son taught me that it’s ok to face my fears….it may even surprise you!
What have your kids taught you lately?
*Make sure to check back tomorrow, I have a BIG announcement to make!!!
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My kids have taught me that I need to not let the little things bother me so much.
I am glad he had a great first day at school.
niki´s last [type] ..#YOLO Monday
Oh yes such a good lesson to learn
Tina @ Life Without Pink´s last [type] ..A Lesson From My Son
oh you made me cry! I remember being at the same point with both boys. With our oldest, after several weeks of watching the little girls cry, he started to cry also. I remember leaning down one morning and telling him “I WANT you to have fun here. It’s OK to enjoy it.” He never cried again.
Congrats on the big milestone. You did good mom.
susan´s last [type] ..Thinking about labels
Thanks so for sharing your story! It’s so hard, but I tried to put on a brave face for him. So glad he loves school!
Tina @ Life Without Pink´s last [type] ..A Lesson From My Son
Ah, I never had a doubt
The vulnerability is paralyzing, isn’t it? Congrats on a new school year! Can’t wait to read your news!!
I was so proud of him…and I’m still in shock at how well he did. My baby is growing up
Tina @ Life Without Pink´s last [type] ..A Lesson From My Son
Now I’m all teary! I’m so glad he had a great day! It’s amazing what our kids can teach us.
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You are so right!
Tina @ Life Without Pink´s last [type] ..A Lesson From My Son
Whew. I got misty eyed reading this. While I know that eventually (and very soon, actually) we’re going to have to send our big boy out into the world on his own, I secretly dread it. I’m sure I will be a big ball of nerves and tears the day I have to leave him at PreSchool. It sounds like you handled it like a champ. And I’m SO happy that he had such a great time!!
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I am so glad that he had a wonderful day! And that you feel so much better about it!
I know that for the longest time I felt horrible about sending my son to daycare, but now there are days I can hardly get him to leave. I know that he is having fun while he’s there and learning so much.
Jackie´s last [type] ..Family Movie Night with Papi
Such a sweet story!
I sent my middle son to high school this year. I felt the same way all over again, as he got out of the car on his first day!!
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