My heart started racing as I peeked into the backseat of the car.
I could see the side of my three-year-old’s head as he stared out the window.
He turned to me and started talking with a quiver in his voice.
I knew he was nervous as he gave me a slight smile.
I held his hand as we walked into the building.
He looked up at me with his bright blue eyes and I said, “You are going to have so much fun today.”
I started getting anxiety as I knew in the next few seconds everything could change.
As we got closer, we heard screaming and crying.
“Great,” I thought. This was going to make it even worse.
We walked into the classroom, removed my son’s book bag from his tiny little back and hung it up in his new cubbie.
I bent down on one knee and looked him in the eyes, “You are such a big boy. You are going to have so much fun playing with your new friends.”
He wrapped his little arms around my neck and whispered, “I love you mommy.”
I grabbed his hand and walked him into the play area.
We looked over to see two little girls crying hysterically as their parents left.
I saw his face fall and how scared he looked. I kept reassuring him how much fun he was going to have and that he would be ok.
One of his teachers ran over all bubbly and welcomed him with a open arms.
I knew I had to be quick before the tears started flowing. I leaned down and gave him a big kiss, “I’ll be back soon to pick you up.”
His face looked pale but he gave me a smile as I walked out.
Later that day, I showed up about ten minutes early to pick him up.
He was outside playing with the other kids and I watched as he was giggling and running all around.
I could feel the emotion roll right through my body and it left tears in my eyes.
My baby boy was playing….without his big brother by his side or without me holding his hand.
Our eyes connected and he darted straight for me with a happy smile on his face, “Today was so much fun! When do I go back?”
At that moment, I felt like a ton of bricks was lifted from my chest.
I have never been more proud of him than I was at that very moment.
Sometimes we can learn a lot from our kids. My son taught me that it’s ok to face my fears….it may even surprise you!
What have your kids taught you lately?