Ok I had a mommy moment. You know the one where your child says something to you and it totally blows your mind. Well that happened yesterday while we were riding in the car on the way to school.
Both boys were in the backseat of my MILF mobile {this one is for This Mama Works It!} watching Nemo. My older son has seen this movie like a trillion times, he still can’t get enough of it.
Then it happened….
“Mom I don’t want to watch Nemo anymore!” my son yelled.
“Why?”
“Because it makes me sad.”
“Really? Why does it make you sad?” I couldn’t figure out why after all of this time he doesn’t want to watch it anymore.
“I don’t know why..I just am sad watching this.”
Then it totally clicked! It was the part where Nemo was crying for his dad after he got lost. I then knew why my son got sad. Last August {7 mos ago and he still remembers this}, he got lost while we were at the Please Touch Museum in Philadelphia.
It was the most terrifying day of my life and his!
My mother-in-law and I took the boys to the museum which happened to be a very crowded day. We were getting ready to leave and my son asked if we could go over to the space room one more time.
In the middle is a big rubber mountain that the kids can run up and jump off. Little B was in his stroller and my mother-in-law and I sat down on the bench. I was watching Big A having a blast rolling down the side of the hill and I looked down for one second. When I looked back up I didn’t see him so I got up to go around to the other side.
He wasn’t there.
I scanned the room as fast as I could. Thankfully I had put him in a bright blue shirt {Note: when heading to a crowded place always dress your kids in bright clothing. This will help make them stand out and be able to spot them easier.}, but I still couldn’t see him. I saw my mother-in-law get up and go to the other side and when she looked at me I will always remember her face, white as a ghost.
He wasn’t in the room.
I immediately ran out through the adjacent room scanning it as fast as I could and screaming his name. I remember my mouth went dry, I felt sick to my stomach and my head began to pound.
This is it. I will never see him again. This must be what parents go through when they lose their child. I can’t believe this is happening to me. These were my thoughts as I ran through the room realizing that my son was no where to be found.
My next thought was to run to the main door {2 rooms over}. If someone has him I was hoping to be able to cut them off or see him before they got out the door.
I never saw the bright blue shirt.
I stood in the crowded room screaming his name {mind you no one even bothered to come over and ask if they could help me}. I felt like I was in a movie. I stood frozen and the room literally was spinning around me. I could faintly hear children’s laughter and voices around me but they were drowned out by the beating of my heart thumping in my chest.
I was in a room by myself, losing my son and I have never felt so alone before in my life. I longed to touch him, hear his voice and kiss his precious little face.
How do I explain this to my husband, my family and his little baby brother? That I lost their sweet little boy.
I ached so bad for my son that it physically hurt.
Then I was shaken by a shrieking voice screaming, “Mommy…Mommy…Mommy!!!” As I turned around my son came running towards me. His face was tear stained and he had a look that I have never seen on his face before…fright.
He ran into my arms and we were both shaking so bad. I never wanted to let him go again.
“Mommy why did you leave me? Why did you walk away from me?”
I realized that when I ran out of the space room looking for me he must of been behind me and saw me running “away” from him. This was a big issue that we had to deal with over the last few months. Every time I walked away from him, he would scream and grab onto my leg.
He was fearful that I would leave him and never come back.
I am happy to say that 7 months later he is doing much better. He is doing great in school, which was a big step for him.
But yesterday really shook me when he said he was sad about watching Nemo.
Even though he couldn’t explain to me why he was sad, I knew the reason. Nemo lost his daddy just like he had lost his mommy. It had brought back all of those emotions for him.
And that makes me sad.
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Such a scary moment that could happen to any of us. So glad that he is getting over his fears. It has never happened to me, but I have played the scenario over in my head, just the thought makes me shiver. If my son walks on the other side of a display in a store I yell his name, hehe.
Thanks for the shout out!
I think losing my kids is by far my worst fear in the world. I get so paranoid when we go in public. I never thought about the bright clothing. That is a great tip. We are going to Disney in July and I will remember that for sure.
I am so glad your little guy is better. I know that must have been so scary for him….and you.
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How frightening. I can’t imagine, but that isn’t to say it couldn’t happen to me. I’m glad he is doing so well now.
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That is by far the scarest mommy moment. So glad it all turned out and he found you. :0)
Thanks also for joining in with Friday Follow. Have a great weekend.
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Just reading that I really felt for you. I had a moment almost as scary once with one of my boys and I will never forget it!
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The worst thing in a mothers life is when they don’t know where their child is. I lost my so off the school bus on his first day of school ever. He got off at the wrong stop and was lost for over 40 minutes. Def. the slowest 40 mins of my life.
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That just made me sad T! But you’re right…he is doing great now!
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This makes me so sad. I panicked the other day while we were out shopping. I lost sight of my one son for like a minute but it felt like 10. I think we were circling the same rack…I was calling him but he is only 2 so he wasn’t answering me. Finally I stopped moving and he found me. It’s a horrible feeling when the fear sets in.
I am so glad you and him are doing better but I can imagine what it feels like to remember that day…
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What a scary thing to go through – I’m always terrified of my boys running off. I would be a complete mess.
Thank goodness he found you!
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How scary! Glad you found your son safe & sound!
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Wow, I could only imagine! I have a little guy too and would probably freak out.
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Yikes, what a terrifying moment! How old was your son when it happened? My son (2 1/2) is still getting over me being in the hospital a few days after having back surgery. Separation can be so traumatic!
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Oh, what a scary thing….Ihave goosebumps!
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I’m following you from Friday Follow. Have a super weekend. Glad you and him are doing great and the scary story ended like it did.
I remember the look on my moms face when we lost my brother who was two. I was terrified also since I was 16. I’m glad you found him. Found you on Friday Follow. I hope you will stop by our chaos soon.
OMG I am soooo in the same boat with you lol. (And i’m in a testosterone filled house too)
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Goodness what a moment! I am glad it all turned out okay. Thank you for joining Friday Follow. Glad to have you part of the fun. Rita @ One 2 Try.
Thank you so much everyone for stopping by! Yes it was probably one of the scariest moments of my life and I hope I never have to go through this again or any of you. It really makes me nervous taking 2 kids places by myself since they both run in different directions, yikes!
Happy Friday everyone – I will be stopping by your blogs in the next few days!
hahahaha, I love your blog title! I am married to a man, and have 2 little boys I TOTALLY know how you feel, can’t wait to read more
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I love your blog. I found it through Friday Follow. Have a great week-end.
How scary! I can’t even imagine how you must have felt and I’m so glad everything was okay. Poor little guy feeling sad watching Nemo though!
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What a scary, scary day that must have been for you! Glad everything worked out so well at the end, though.
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I LOVE your blog title! Very clever! That sounds like a very scary experience you went through! I don’t EVER want to experience something like that. Glad everything turned out okay.
I will be back to visit your blog! Following now.
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I know the feeling! Ugh, it’s such an awful feeling! I just found your blog! I am loving it! I don’t know pink either…2 boys.
Kim
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Oh that is scary. I’m so glad it turned out OK. My oldest likes to walk off when we’re at the store, even though I’m very careful. I’m constantly trying to get him to understand how important it is that he stay with me.
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Oh my goodness… You brought tears to my eyes reading this. I don’t know what I would do if I ever experience that moment. It would just crush you…
On a happier note: You have a BEAUTIFUL blog and I just love the way you write! I am a new follower and can’t wait to read more of your thoughts!
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I am glad some of you ladies can relate to my title! I swear moms with boys should be in their own separate clubs at times
Thanks ladies for all of your sweet comments….Ali – thank you for that compliment. Made my day!!
I remember when you first wrote about this. It made my heart pound to read it then and still does now.
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I’ve heard it said that Finding Nemo is a very scary and confronting movie for a lot of small children, because not only is the idea of losing a parent very upsetting, but also the movie can take a long time to get to the part where they find each other again, and an upset child can often switch off and not get to it.
((HUGS)) for you and your little man, it must have been frightening
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Glad he found you!
This really brought tears to my eyes because it is my biggest fear. I can’t even imagine how you must’ve felt.
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Stopping in from SITS. Clicked on this article as I love Nemo but I realized after reading this post how scary that can be for a child even without having been through the experience he had been through! I am glad he is safe and was found, but wow. What a hard Mama moment! Also I have pink – one girl and 2 boys, let me tell you one opinion – the girls are HARDER as they get older! lol (at least mine is) My daughter was A-mazing, made you want to have 8 kids – no joke – but once she hit age 6 it was like watch out world!
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How scarry! I’ve lost my kiddo in the store before, and it is so horrifyingly scarry!
Crystal
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SCARY! I have “misplaced” my son before too. Scared me to death! I am glad he is getting better.
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Every parent’s worst fear. If I don’t see my kids in a crowded place for a split second, I panic. I can’t imagine the minutes.
Glad things are getting better.
That was a scary moment- one I think most of us can relate to, you never want to feel like that again.
Over to say Happy SITS day! x
I know all to well that horrifying feeling. I’ve “misplaced” each of my 4 kids on separate occasions. It wasn’t more than a couple of minutes. But they were the most horrible minutes of my life.
This post not only reminded me of that but also inspired a future blog post about the Mexican take on “misplacing” children.
I really hope you’re enjoying your SITS day!
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Wow I have been exactly where you were and even have a half written (soon to update) post about this topic. So scary and so glad you found each other again.
Finding Nemo is one of my fave Disney flicks although it is a three hankies one for sure. Love your blog. Happy SITS day, from another mama without pink (so far!)
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I felt my breath catch in my chest as I read this. Losing my child in a public place is one of my greatest fears…any mother’s, I expect. I’m so glad everything turned out all right – in Nemo as in life!
Oh you poor things. Its an awful awful indescribable feeling. We have three little girls and we lost our middle one while in a market at a park. Thankfully just for 10 minutes and we found her by the music stand. I thought she was with my husband and he thought she was with me. It was appalling because all I could think of was whether someone had taken her or whether she had crossed the road into the town.
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Aww poor lil’ fella! I think a lot of kid movies have things like that in them but kids generally haven’t experienced those feelings so they aren’t so much affected by it. It’s so sad when they can relate.
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Isn’t it amazing how those things affect our kids? My son’s tear-jerker movie is “Dumbo” when Dumbo goes to visit his mother in her train car and she rocks him on her trunk. Every single time we’ve watched this, my boy gets teary and hugs me. Mine doesn’t have an event that I can think of that would lead to this, just sensitive, I suppose. I hope your son continues to move past his bad experience. Visiting from SITS
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Been there, dear! And no one but a mama can understand the dread in those moments. Just that split second when you think of what COULD happen, or the briefest moment when you think you might have to live without them. You see THEIR lives pass in front of your eyes. And then they’re there & it’s OK. Being a mom is scary sometimes.
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